Sometimes I think that I scare people off
That I try too hard
But I get nervous, and I get a bit scared myself
My biggest fear is that I will live without love. I've been thinking about that a lot these past few days. It's really sucked because everyone has been doing so much stuff, thus I have been left in my house to sit and think in solitude. I tell ya, thinking is never good; not the real, good, long, deep, and hard thinking. I'm sure I'll find my girl, and I'm sure she'll find me...I just wish it didn't have to be so long. Winter can be the worst season, or the best. It gets oftly cold, even though we live in San Diego, and cold is just a term for below 70 degrees, it still does get a bit chilly in the night. I just wish I had someone to curl up with and share a blanket on the couch, and watch some movie while we drink our hot chocolate/chai/or even coffee.
Oh no more lights glistening
No more carols to sing
But Christmas
It makes way for Spring
About Me
- Tommy
- 10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Luke 4:10-13
6 comments:
there is no fear in love.
i really think you should take advantage of this downtime and lean on God for your comfort and warmth. from personal experience i can tell you that this will far surpass anything you've experienced with a girl.
i really hope you do take some time off. focus in. my "fear" for you is that you will never truly take the time to let God alone be your everything and you will miss the blessings of that that lie on the other side of earthly lonliness. don't settle for anything less than all God has for you...and in order to find that, sometimes you have to go about it on your own.
you're right, I just get so caught up in everything. This is just one thing I've always wanted, more than anything. I guess it's just hard to let go, ya know.
ah i heard this thing at camp...i wish i remembered where exactly the person had gotten it from...i think john eldridge...the author of wild at heart. but he was talking about girls, dating, and wives and said something like for the most part God doesn't give you something that will last (on earth) like a marriage or a good relationship that will lead to marriage until you come to a place in your life where you realize you don't need that and you are fine giving it up to the Lord and saying "Hey, if I never get married and just live a life seeking you, earthly alone, then so be it". After this, God tends to open up the doors to good relationships that lead to marriage. And when you really think about it, it makes sense. The Bible says not to build up earthly treasures because they will fade away but to seek after the kingdom first. It was a really awesome thing to realize...I guess haha I meant to tell you that on our walk but never got there and I'm glad I just remembered.
See you soon (:
I'm sure this get's tiring, but you really are amazing. It's great to have a friend who can completely tell me flat out when I'm doing something stupid.
God's really been puting that on my heart lately though. At college/young adult group one of the guys brought up that scripture about "if man has a wife then let him live with a wife; but if a man doesn't have a wife, let him not search for one" that whole thing. I came to the conclusion that relationships and a longing for them can turn into an idol. I just need to get to the point where I can be content with anything, and no that I give my heart to God first, and then to someone else. There's a lot I have left on the topic, too much for a blog comment :] Let's Sbux soon, tomorrow before group mayhaps?
exactly! i'm glad. and i love that passage. i read it a lot.
i hate to be that friend who is just pushing "the christian way" down your throat (or anybody's). so it is encouraging to know that my attempts to help you out aren't met with rolled eyes and a mumbled "you're freaking retarded".
:) sbux tomorrow sounds loverly.
haha shovin down my throat? You're more spoon feedin it! Thank you :]
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