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Looks like another fight for us, again
Our shining gold has turned to rust, again
I’m beaten, broken, and misconstrued, again
And every time, someone has to loose, again

I don’t know how to make this right
It’s just another stupid fight
You might think on the outside it is nothing
But on the inside, girl, I am broken
I’m broken again
I’m broken again

And like a lion I am roaring, again
Your heart, your soul, it is soaring, again
You hear the words and start to cry, again
It hurts so bad; you want to die, again

You don’t know how to make this right
You know it’s another stupid fight
I might think on the outside it is nothing
But I can tell on the inside you are broken
You’re broken again
You’re broken again


We know that we can make this right
It doesn’t have to be another fight
And we know that this is really nothing
And here we are, girl, we are golden
We’re golden again
We’re golden again
We’re golden again
We’re golden again

Dear Lord!

Could things get worse?

I imagine they could be, but I would rather not see what it could be like. I hate how I make the most beautiful messes, and just pray to God that He could sweep up the mess. I need prayer more than ever, this is tearing at my heart and my head!

schools back

I don't know why, but there's something about that first time you wear a pair of anything; a new shirt, pants, heck even socks feel great when they're brand new! I don't know why but everything seems to be better in the beginining.

I remember back when I was first getting serious about God. It was amazing! I was in the furnace with Rabby and the whole gang! After a while, it seemed like my logs had just about all been burt out. Guess what kids, I have a suprise for you! There's this guy named God, and he has the logs to throw on our dwindling flames; it's called the Word. Heck five minutes is worth the biggest forrest in the world! Just imagine what an hour could do, or why stop there? What do you think a lifetime could do? I imagine it could get you hung on a cross, rise up three days later, and live forever in heaven with God. Ok, so someone already did that. Jesus paid the price so that we didn't have to. Because of Him, we can skip the cross thing and just go straight to heaven if we are willing. What's it take? A fire that burns brighter than the sun in our hearts. It's never to late to rekindle a flame, all it takes is some fuel.






P.S.
God gave us ants to show an example of teamwork, and hard work. Is it bad that when they invade my room I kill them?

new day

man, I just keep getting tossed. I've just been feeling like Jonah. Not when he's agruing with God, or when he's hiding from Him. But more when he's inside the whale. Jonah knew he was doing wrong, so he told the men to throw him overboard. I'm feeling like I've been puting these lives at stake and I just need to swallow my pride/fear and jump in the swirling ocean! The funny thing is, God is like a net for those times we feel like tight-rope walking. It doesn't matter how scared, or how horribly bad we may be at walking, if we fall God will always catch us. So I'll jump in and God's going to catch me like he did Jonah. Although it might not be with his physical hand, he just might suprise me with a giant whale! Nothing will wake you up more than that, it's a fact! While I'm in that whale, Lord knows I'm going to be praying to him like I've never done before. I imagine it might be something like this...



Jonah's Prayer
1 From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the LORD his God. 2 He said: "In my distress I called to the LORD, and he answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and you listened to my cry.
3 You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me.
4 I said, 'I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again toward your holy temple.'
5 The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head.
6 To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But you brought my life up from the pit, O LORD my God.
7 "When my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, LORD, and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple.
8 "Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs.
9 But I, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good. Salvation comes from the LORD."
10 And the LORD commanded the fish, and it vomited Jonah onto dry land.



Now, I'm just waiting to be vomited back onto dry land!

it's my confession Lord that I am weak
so very weak
but you are strong